I just wanna let you know that I'm sorry if I'm not a perfect partner. I'm sorry if I have a short temper. I'm sorry if I annoy you. I'm sorry if I act a little immature sometimes. I'm sorry if I ever doubted your love for me. I'm sorry if I sometimes fail to understand you. I feel really bad for all of that. But there's one thing I'll never do, I won't give you up. I'll fight for you and I'll show you how much you matter to me.
I remembered myself asking you what if I get cancer. Your reply made me tear :')
"If you get cancer I will just cry hardcore la. And donate whatever I can to help you"
I miss how you sing Grenade to me in chinese.
I miss texting w you.
I miss chatting on the phone w you, making me laugh on train.
I miss your presence.
I miss hugging you.
I miss kissing you.
I miss how you act cute.
I miss your baobaos.
I miss how you gaigai for me before bed.
I miss looking at your face.
I miss seeing how you behave like a baby.
I'm afraid of goodbyes because I'm scared that you'll never come back.
I worry for your safety. I pray for your safety every morning. I pray for time to pass faster so I can see you on Saturday night. I pray for time to pass faster so you can finish your ns. W/o you, I'm nothing. You mean so much to me. I never ever wanna ask you "What happened? You're tired? What about our promised happiness?"
I just want someone to give me a hug, tell me everything's gonna be fine and make me feel okay again.
I hate how I spend my nights crying and feeling sad all over. I hate how I get woken up by nightmares so many times. I hate how I can't let go of things.
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Gonna bleach my hair red in Dec. Budget for dying hair will be $100!! Not gonna cut my hair.
