Keep calm and diet

Look, skinny girls are always so happy and I envy them.
I hate how I always disappoint my friends. Telling them I can but in the end I'll be like "I can't do it".

I hate how people make use of others. I hate how self centered some can be.
I can't wait to meet my tekko babies tomorrow I can't wait! I need to meet them ohgosh.

Gonna spam myself w salad and fruits for every meal everyday. I might snack at night, I might just eat supper and ended up not losing any weight but I'm not gonna stop trying. I've been trying for so damn long I'm not gonna stop just like this. I need to learn how to love my body.

Girls like me are forever so contradicting I know.

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Have to wait for my parents to be free this month and I can't wait to add Freda into my IC and whatever etc. Cuz I don't wna be like, "that's a fake name, it's not in her ic". I find it really cute when some people are already calling me Freda and some other friends are like "YAHUI!!!!" hhahaha they're so cute (L)

Yeah I said I'm on diet right? But I'm going to Sushi Tei for lunch w my babygirl tomorrow. Gonna shop, watch movie and have lunch w her. The best part is, I'm also gonna shop and eat dinner w Tekkos. It's gonna be a sinful day for me but it's all worth it I guess.

I really love food and I really love to eat. However I just have to control.

Don't tell me you don't have time to do such things for me when You can find the time to do such things for him.

Getting rather emotional. I'm sorry Abby for showing you attitude when it isn't your fault. I'm just disappointed and pissed off..

Hectic life I've been leading for the past three weeks and still going on. I don't know when I'll collapse. Projects are starting to come in and I'll be even busier. Inter college is on 10th May and I'll get even more exhausted. I feel so tired everyday. Pimples are invading my face, my face look so......... idk.... I just look really tired. Nvm, this is what I want and I'll continue doing it. I like how motivated I am now.

Blogshops, please stop disappointing me w your inefficiency. I feel really sad when I don't receive my parcels on time. I have 6 items which I've not receive yet. ALL REGISTERED MAIL. I'm a loyal customer and I feel really sad when my favourite blogshops are inefficient.

I've to wake up early tomorrow. Goodnight xx

Anw, I just created formspring HAHA ask me anything :) Fredapoppy. I've no idea why I use this username either. HAHAH SOUNDS CUTE AYE. http://www.formspring.me/Fredapoppy :)

This video iz so saddddd
"This stranger was the most important person in my life"

SELLING MY GUCCI WALLET

Hi babes I'm selling off my Gucci wallet! In a good condition to me. Mail me for more real life pictures! NO WORRIES IT'S AUTHENTIC!:D

SELLING THIS DARK CHOCOLATE BROWN COLOUR! ^

IT LOOKS LIKE THIS. ^

OVERALL LOOKS LIKE THIS. BUT IN DARK CHOCOLATE BROWN NOT WHITE.

with flash

W/O FLASH

Gucci 203548 Mini Flap French wallet.
Features: Engraved Gucci script heart tab snap closure, six card slots, bill compartment, and coin pocket. 

Approximate dimensions: 3"L x 4.3"H

This Gucci wallet comes with: Gucci box, and authenticity card.
Made in Italy 
This is a 100% Guaranteed Authentic Gucci!


Got this wallet for SGD$560. I rate my wallet's condition 7/10 cuz there are some scratches on the Engraved Gucci and some not obvious scratches on the coin pocket. SELING IT AT $480 OR Quote your own price but please be reasonable cuz it's less than two months old! I'm selling my super precious plus chio wallet away because I'm currently VERY broke my parents stopped giving me moolah to go out. C'mon, be kind and help the poor HAHA


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I wanna stay in a house like this :(

HELLO KITTTYYYY AHHHH~~~~

this goddamn macbook sleeves cost $270. :( booo stupid sleeves y u so ex

Okay play yesterday was awesome awesome awesome though i can't rmb most of the stuffs fuck got almost fucking wasted damn im still a lousy drinker :( couldn't stop puking my ba chor mee out and yay so many people stepped on my puke HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAH and now bren keep telling me what i did last night i feel so embarrassed omg nvm at least we all had fun :) oh and i still can't get over the fact that someone actually pulled out my rubberband hahaha and now i've no rubberband. okay i need to stop complaining about it but sibei funny sial(to me) and thankyou meisian thinthin ilina for taking care of me ystd HAHAHA

yesterday's training was fun! except the fact that my back hurts thanks ah zoeychua (for injuring my back when i was sec4 HAHA) i very ji chou one. cherlyn sprained her anklepls takecareeeeeee:) and stupid... _ i forgot her name HAHHAAH can't stop slapping my flabby arms ugh imma pull down your shorts 

bren told me my back's swollen :( oh whatever it'll be gone soon idwna go to the sinseh crazzzzzzyyyy i can totally rmb how badly i cried when the sinseh rubbed my back and stuffs. 

i feel like sleeping now omg

sat gna drink martellllllllll yaaaaaay ok shutup i dont think i'll drink. i'm scared of hangoversssss. HAHAHA

okok im really tired again hehe goodnight i'm gg back to sleep

Knowing you'll never be that girl

Tried so hard to lose weight but I'm still not losing. I keep eating. I hate myself SO MUCH. I wanna be boney so much. I wanna have pretty collarbones so much. I wanna have flat tummy so much. I wanna have obvious hip bones so much. I don't wanna have thunder thighs.

i hate my body so much why cant i just accept myself i hate hate hate hate my body. why ain't i losing weight when i'm so busy. okay i hate life. i should just tire myself out, yes i should just... tire myself out and go and die. 

im joining another team which means i'll have additional training on sunday. im stupid i should use this chance to tire myself out. what im afraid of is skipping school idwna skip school. okay lemme think about it. i've work on weekends.. okay i'll just go tire myself out hopefully i'll improve in my skills by a lil cuz im too lousy to improve alot i'll never improve alot haha joke and hopefully i'll be able to lose weight. others can manage their packed schedule why can't i? i can do it. 

i hate how my friends tell me i'm not fat. it makes me guilty. they cared for me and yet i'm doing this. sigh

it sucks know. im so excited for this friday and BAM we're not going shopping anymore. haha joke i shouldnt get excited in the first place i'm being stupid and demanding ya i suck as a gf i can gnd. ya i only know how to puah stun i suck i suck.

everything's going smoothly for me except for my weight. soon there'll be a competition then i'll be like "fuck im so lousy im forever a bench warmer" ohfuck i hate myself

You're lucky if your memories remain

BORED @ HOME.

*squeeze fat face*

Staying home today cuz I don't wanna spend money :( I'm so broke now! Pay faster come come come!! Those stuffs on my shopping list are not my needs, just my wants. I don't think I need anything since I've already gotten my bag pack. (OMG IT'S SO CHIO) HAHAHA

I'm like trying to lose weight... but I keep eating hehehe Shall try to conti my one meal a day diet plan. My plan always fail though HAHA. Wna ink my hips but I'm currently too fat to get my hip inked so shall lose 5kilos more then ink it. hehe after I get my pay Imma ask Jasmine fishball to bring me go ink other parts of my body.. like hands and legs HAHAHAHA

Sighhh I don't have a Toga dress for Yuwen's bday :( Shall go shop for one after school on Friday. Yay there's no lessons tomorrow because Ms Pang's not free wahahaha BUT I've to go work form 2-11pm. Nvm, at least I can feel money rolling in HAHAHA Fossil pay faster come! I don't even fucking know when my pay is gna be in ugh

Tekkos BBQ was fucking awesome yesterday! Played games, drink drink drink and drink HAHAHA I hereby announce that I'M NOT A LOUSY DRINK ANYMORE WAHAHAHA Drank so much (to me) and I only got a little tipsy. Wlao y i always talk to myself sian zzzzzz

kkz i no life now shall go watch icarly now hehe buaiz edit this post l8r hahaha

Pain is a pleasure

PLAY w Tekkos last Thurs was FRIGGIN' awesome :D

Tipsy like mad couldn't rmb some of the stuffs but at least we had fun ^^

IEH(L)

Abby and I are apparently the craziest girls in class and I totally luv it

Two new pretty girls in our class! :D Jodie and.. i forgot the other pretty girl's name (AH SHIT! UGH)

Reiko, me, Amanda& Abigail

Amanda, Jasmin, Reiko, Pauline, me

STUPID ABBY HAHAHAHA

The first week of school is coming to an end (yay). The first week spent in school w my classmates was awesome and I like them a lot :) Made quite a number of new friends and we're probably the bubble tea clique hehe Pauline, Reiko, Vanessa, Amanda, Abigail, Jasmin, Yolanda and myself. I've been drinking gongcha for almost everyday ohgawd let's calculate the amount of fats HAHA So, our class has around 35 people and there are only four smokers in class Boooo :( I've the nicest teacher in school I assume. Enough said about my class. One work: Awesome :) Oh ya! Classmates are gna come MSC for ice cream on monday when I work ^^

I can't deny the fact that life's going quite smoothly for me: my job, my school,  basketball, friends & my girlfriend. And guess what? I joined basketball again. I've no idea why I'm so gehgan wanna join basketball again when I'm so lousy. Slowly you'll see me blogging about how awful I feel about sitting on the bench like how I rant on blog about sitting on the bench for the past two years. I mean, so what if you get into the team? Get into team but sit bench also sian right? Wanted to join dance but.... there's audition and I still prefer Basketball :) I think I got into team... idk? Hopefully I did.... Cuz I'm really lousy

My job's pay isn't high at all. In fact, it's quite low. However, I don't mind. As long as the people there are nice. I really like working at KLP's MSC the girls there are really nice. What's the point of working in a place with a high part time pay but the people there doesn't like you? It doesn't feel good at all to feel like that way. Not at all.

Trained w the Central Basketball girls just once but I find them nice to get along with too :)

C'mon start teaching us things already cuz I know nuts about econs and blahblahblah office skills. I can't wait to work hard and proceed to poly then uni(althou I think I'll end up getting into SIM HAHA)

Meeting my dearests later for BBQ @ Thin's. I MISS THEM SO MUCH! The last time I met them was Monday!!! It was well spent together though :) Can't wait to meet them next Thursday too! Hehe Luv my girls (L) CAN'T WAIT TO HAVOC W EM TONIGHT. Everyone must get drunk. HAHAHAH

I WANNA HAOLIAN STH HAHAHA I'M THE TALLEST IN THE CLIQUE HAHAHAHA YAY HAHAHA FOR THE FIRST TIME KNOW HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA 

Bby is reaching soon I gotta go get wash up already hehe toodles!
Shall just drink gongcha every weekday. It shall be my only meal HAHAHA GOLDEN OVALTINE (Y)

HOLA

HOLA NEW CLASSMATES :) IEH :) Luvin' ma new classmates had fun w the girls @ Tamp Mall today. Nine of us :)So happy I managed to make new friends

I'm dead beat gna take a nap while waiting for bby to come over to watch x-men 2 tgt :)
Joined Basketball again. Training on Tuesdays. Gotta organise myself hehe hope I over tire myself and lose weight wahahaha i'm a phatty. Work from 2-11 tomorrow! School ends at 1pm. Shall have my lunch w classmates first then go for work. I'm a busy gurlzxz1993. Can't wait to get my dr martens and that necklace and tattoos and hunt for watch yay work hard for $$!^^ First on my list is martens, tattoos, watch then necklace. Oh and ofcourse adding Freda into my ic in May. I feel like an idiot not having it in my ic.

Happy birthday Zaus NOTTIE Zhuo!^^ Sorry I won't be attending your birthday cuz... I DONT THINK NET'S GOING. Idwna go there aloneeeee. Furthermore I need more rest for school.

Needa replenish my sleep today. I'm deprived of sleep (x_x) goodahnitexz

SELF REMINDER: I NEED A SINGTEL BROADBAND PAPA PLZ GET IT FOR ME.

LAONIANG REALLY IZ SIBEI TIREDZ WNA SLEEP BUT CAN'T SLEEP IN PEACE CUZ I HAVENT ORGANISE MYSELF YET...

goodnighty

SAY YELLOW TO MY MACBOOK HEHE IMMA NAME IT.. MACKIE..

bye super chio monitor but lousy cpu

Today is our 2nd I love you big day and my first day of school. Oh my gosh to the fucking max I felt like the biggest loser in school! Fuck I was alone and I tried Rach's style... Like... Maintain the face abit, act cool walk infront when they take us for a school tour. Thank goodness we had this bonding game or something (WHATEVER U CALL IT) I managed to managed to make a few friends :) I'm a super shy girl if I don't know you... so.... YEAH I WAS KINDA QUIET. My class is IEH I think. Yeah, IEH. I hope I'll be able to make more friends and like, get closer to my new friends :) They're really nice and my new classmates are kinda awesome :) School isn't as bad as I imagined. I thought the school will be invaded w minahs, bengz and lianz but i was wrong and phew that's a good thing.

Okay so after school, went home w my new friend, Vanessa :) She seemed kinda lianish but I won't judge someone like this cuz I find her nice to hang out w. Scary thing is, wait till they know me better they might not wanna be friends w me anymore! :( Cuz I'm sampat & bimbotic :(

Hit town to meet Bby to have a simple celebration for our 2nd Month. Ohgawdzx Idk how the hell we tahan each other for two months but hehe i love you (L) Went to OC to get my bagpack weeeeeee imma use it for school. IT'S SO FUCKING CHIO I'M MELTING.

Met Tekkos @ OC YAY MET SO MANY OF EM I'M SO HAPPY WEEEEEE~~~~~ This sat will be a blast for this awesome clique. 

Bbby surprised me by making a reservation at this... isit a restaurant or a... IDK. The one that has swing in the "restaurant" @ 313's 1st Level. I always wanted to dine there but it looked so expensive from the outside. End up it's quite affordable :)

THEIR GREEN APPLE JUICE IS SIBEI HO(Y) NOT THAT SOUR :)

This Baked Mussels... YI JI BANG (Y)

Bby's Grilled Cheeken :) not bad!

I forgot what's mine called.. Urm.. minoko sth sth beef HEHE

Things she MUST do to make me happy (^^)v

Thx bby for the treat (L)

Off to Cine after dinner to meet Tekkos again. HAHAHAHA I JUST LUV HANGING OUT W EM. We can have fun even when we're.... doing nothing but slacking at town. HAHAHA I need to save up!!! :( No more shopping for me sighsigh I needa save and work work work. Will be friggin' busy from next week onwards. Wna earn more $$ to satisfy moi wishlistzx

Went home w bby and camwhore w mackie ^^

LOVE YOU.

I NEED TO REPEAT THIS ... I CAN'T WAIT TO GET ORGANIZED. HEHE