Dear boyfriend

I just wanna let you know that I'm sorry if I'm not a perfect partner. I'm sorry if I have a short temper. I'm sorry if I annoy you. I'm sorry if I act a little immature sometimes. I'm sorry if I ever doubted your love for me. I'm sorry if I sometimes fail to understand you. I feel really bad for all of that. But there's one thing I'll never do, I won't give you up. I'll fight for you and I'll show you how much you matter to me.

I remembered myself asking you what if I get cancer. Your reply made me tear :')
"If you get cancer I will just cry hardcore la. And donate whatever I can to help you" 

I miss how you sing Grenade to me in chinese.
I miss texting w you.
I miss chatting on the phone w you, making me laugh on train.
I miss your presence.
I miss hugging you.
I miss kissing you.
I miss how you act cute.
I miss your baobaos.
I miss how you gaigai for me before bed.
I miss looking at your face.
I miss seeing how you behave like a baby.


I'm afraid of goodbyes because I'm scared that you'll never come back.
I worry for your safety. I pray for your safety every morning. I pray for time to pass faster so I can see you on Saturday night. I pray for time to pass faster so you can finish your ns. W/o you, I'm nothing. You mean so much to me. I never ever wanna ask you "What happened? You're tired? What about our promised happiness?"

I just want someone to give me a hug, tell me everything's gonna be fine and make me feel okay again.
I hate how I spend my nights crying and feeling sad all over. I hate how I get woken up by nightmares so many times. I hate how I can't let go of things.

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Gonna bleach my hair red in Dec. Budget for dying hair will be $100!! Not gonna cut my hair.

You'll never see what you've done to me

"Just so you know karma has everybody's address and a motherfucking stamp."
I need not say anything, for the truth will be out someday. 

91 more book outs :)

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Poor boy booked out but before that he was at the sickbay from 730am - 8pm. What's worse was he was poked by iv needle :( Both of us are still sick now :(

Bf went to the doc w his parents while I waited at (second)home. Camwhore a little, trying to get myself a new d/p heh.

All of us headed to City Plaza after they came back. It feels so good when his mom called me like I'm her own daughter :') 

This was where the iv needle poked thru :(

Shopped @ City Plaza, got myself a beaded collar for $26. Not as cheap as I thought it'd be.

His parents drove us to Lavender then dropped us at Bugis :) Took train to Ion, shoppinggggggg~~~~~ But I bought nothing whereas bf bought Topman's chino pants :) 

Trained to Cathay, bf got himself a tee too hehe. Caught Breaking Dawn Part I @ The Grand Cathay omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg I WAS SO DAMN EXCITED HEHEHE I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR YEARSSSS FOR BREAKING DAWN! SINCE SEC3!!!!! AHHHHHHH. THE MOVIE WAS AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME!!!! IT DIDN'T DISAPPOINT ME AT ALL UNLIKE TWILIGHT, NEWMOON AND ECLIPSE!!!! OMG OMG CAN'T WAIT FOR PART 2....... NEXT YEAR... SO LONG.... but... IIIII WILLLLLL WAITTTTTTT~~~~ 

After movie, had Mcdonalds for supper (SO FATTENING ) SIGH. 

Went to Mustafa for the second time hehehe bought bf a $19 casio watch. So cheap! 

Love this pict we look so sweet + i looked good HAHAH

Headed home and slept. So tired.

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Book in day :'( 

He's going outfield for 6 days which means we can't text, we can't talk and I can't hear his voice. 

Go what jungle :'( if singapore really got War also use HBD flats what! :( Why must go jungle dig hole all. :( Hope bf can takecare of himself there. He's still sick :(

Love you bf, pls take care :'( I'm gonna miss you so much that I'll cry everyday for sure. Sigh. Just so not my month.  Am at my lowest peak and he has to go outfield :'( I MISS HIM SO MUCH NOW EVEN THOUGH WE JUST PARTED LIKE 5 HOURS AGO. I almost cried. omfg i miss you.

For you my dear,

My only Sunshine - Johnny Cash

I wanna grow old w you :') Can't wait to grow up and be financially settled down.
Don't ever leave me, don't shatter all my dreams.

Potato chips

Fever. Sore throat. Flu. Blocked nose. Headache. Chest pain. = MC.

I feel so bad for taking mc. I caused so much troubles. I promised myself I'll not take MC when I'm working at Praise like how I used to skip work in the past when I was working at Uniqlo. Whenever I'm sick I'd still go to work. This time this one I really cannot take it. Too weak to even move around moreover walk to the station to take train. I wouldn't wanna faint in the public. 

Waiting for the heavy rain to stop then I'll go to the doc already. I feel so awful. Woke up at 7am, couldn't breathe because my nose is blocked. Blowing my nose didn't help so I had to breathe through my mouth. Cried so badly in the morning because I felt so horrible and my whole body was numb, I thought I was gonna die. Thank goodness I feel much better now but still feel terrible. 

I realised ever since I started working at FEP I'd fall sick at least once a week. Didn't fall sick at all when I was working at Cine. Perhaps my body's too weak for the air con there. It's so cold there, I feel like I'm freezing at work everyday. Oh well, I'll be quitting at the end of the year, gonna just endure for one more month.

Ahh. I wanna have long fringe, long wavy hair & ofcourse, be thin. I really LOVE WID's model's hair. WANT HER HAIRRRR