Tomorrow is my first training day at Marble Slab :) I'm rather excited. I hope I'll not pon work anymore. I don't wanna find anymore excuses for myself already.
Bby played w me just now and my face turned pale cuz I've low blood pressure. How weak can I get. Lol. Play tmr w my girls I'm excited to see ALL of em tomorrow. It's been really long since we last met as a full clique. However ray's not coming, she's busy w work :(
I am currently VERY sad now.
24165) It eats me alive knowing that no one knows how much I really hate my body and how hard I try to restrict. No one knows because I never lose enough weight for them to see a dramatic change. I'll never be the thin girl that I dream of and people will never know how tortured I really am by this.
I can't see what you see.
