i'm not someone who can take hardship. my life's screwed enough. i can't take any blows anymore. i'm someone who's lack of confidence and self-esteem. you don't have to try to pull my confidence level up. it'll never happen. just let me be myself, the low confidence and no self-esteem me. every little setback can cause a huge impact on me. moreover.... sigh. i'm someone who's very sensitive and always speak up for myself at the wrong time. i'm glad that i didn't speak up. i just wna keep quiet. i dwna cause any more bad impressions. i have so many bad impressions in my whole life already. you can ask 10 people and out of 10 people probably 8 will say their first impresion of my sux. i think she's the first person who had a good impression of me. i really appreciate that but i'm sorry i'm too embarrassed and selfish to stay. i took so much courage to just give you a call moreover continue for another 3 days.
"we're bound to be afraid even if it's just for a few days" - Run by Snow Petrol
when i'm sad i don't want people to ask me what happened cuz i don't wanna be reminded of everything. yet i want people to care for me. contradicting much. just like how much i hate b asking me what happened that day. i felt so horrible, so so horrible that day. i actually kept quiet when someone did those kinda things to me. i hate how i behaved that day... like a coward. that's so not me. wanted to cry so much but i don't wanna look weak infront of people. i don't want people to think i'm some pampered spoilt brat. sigh
nvm. time to get washed up. meeting xq l8r. time to catch up girl.
