Yaya, I got terminated this morning by Janet. Great. I felt so good when she terminated me but at the same time I felt so weird. Like something's missing. Gonna miss my crazy cols esp Nora's orgasm noise. Gna miss laughing w them like mad in the staffroom, miss di-siaoing customers w Jiajing, miss koping Yuxuan's milk tea w pearls, gna miss gossiping, miss Gabriel's gayness and miss saying Yanting's a god. Yanting is the nicest manager I've ever fucking met. Although I worked only 3 months but it felt like I've been working there for a very long time. Now that I'm terminated, I felt like a free bird, I don't have to think of excuses when I skip work I don't have to wake up early. BUT. I'm a penniless free bird now how great omgosh. However I know what Janet did was right. Furthermore I should be terminated long ago LOL. I hated Janet out of impulse just now cuz I'll have to compensate Wingtai either $120 or $301. Wth, and I can't work under Wingtai (Topshop, Ben sherman etc) for I think 3 months. Eww. But... to think again... Is I gehgan so I shall not blame anyone but myself.
Now I feel so fucking free. Like empty too... like... nothing ahead is waiting for me to do. What do I look forward to now? MEETING MY FRIENDS AND EXERCISE AND HOPE AWFULLY CHOCOS WILL EMPLOY ME.
Momma's rather disappointed w me ohwell, I can't undo what's done. Shall work harder in my next job.
Yeah, my obession of being skinny is overwhelming. I bet those who are following me on twitter are annoyed by my countless nonsense and rants. I'm so sorry about it. This is me. I tried to stop but I can't.
I'm gonna rant on my blog too. This is so sad. The numbers on the scale is so important to me I've no idea why. I look fat so ya, shut up. I'll work out more I'll eat less I'll drink more water.
Food so tempting what am I supposed to do. It's so difficult to lose weight. I suffered for a week last year. In a week to lost weight from 52kg to 49kg. YES JUST A WEEK. Basically I just don't eat anything and keeps spamming water and mints. I maintained that weight for a couple of months until Dec, I started to gain weight again till now. SO DEVASTATING. It was really difficult to maintain that weight. It wasn't easy at all. I had to restrict myself from eating and that's so sad. I'm trying to do the same this year, but two weeks so I can lose 6kilos.
I want pretty collarbones, I want small thighs, I want sharp face, I want flat tummy.
Do this to my mouth so I can't eat.
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Animal cruelty. DON'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND WHY SOME HUMANS HAVE TO BE SO CRUEL. Yes, we humans feed on sheeps, chickens, pigs. But when you kill them, MAKE IT FUCKING QUICK. Don't make those animals suffer in pain. Like, sliting their throat alive and let the blood flow? Or what? Pulling their intestines out ALIVE? EATING THEIR MEAT ALIVE? WTF.
On the other hand, I feel so guilty for eating meat. This is so cruel. Slaughtering those animals is just like slaughtering your... whoever. Because they are animals, you can't feel their pain. It's just like watching gore movies like torturing humans. This is what certain humans are doing to animals.
Why not kill those animal before you skin them? Why skin them alive? It's so fucking painful. Like someone pulling your skin outta you ALIVE. WTF :( Ya, esp those tiong koks. Always so cruel always abuse animals. Wtf.
