*jumps excitedly*

I'm supposed to wakey at 630am. It's 320 now I'm still wide awake sneezing!

Going Bkk l8r! Yay can't wait can't wait! Gna be back on the 3rd w lotsa goodies hiakhiakhiak

Loserville

Yes I'm currently feeling very emotional because my mom just called me useless. K whatever getting teriminated doesn't mean I'm fucking useless for christ's sake. Ya ya whatever I'm useless I failed O's and got terminated. AH WHATEVER Fuck you. I actually cried like mad and slammed the door mad hard (LIKE BOOMZX) because I was SO FUCKING ANGRY YOZX NABUEYYYY

FUCK LA CAN'T YOU SEE I'M TRYING TO GET A NEW SLACKY JOB. HEHE &Ofcourse I've learnt my lesson I won't skip work. Cuz I feel extremely bored at home. Y'know... my friends won't sleep w/o seeing the sun. HAHAHA

And tumblr isn't helping me to feel better by looking at pictures like this. Lol

Okay this made me laugh. HAHAH

And one more video to make whoever's reading this now. PLEASE WATCH IT.

IT WAS SO FUNNY I NEARLY DIED. HAHAHA.

PLEASE DON'T BE A DUMBFUCK AND GET OFFENDED BY THIS VIDEO. Cuz if you feel offended, damn you must be from imadumbfuckforsale.com.sg or go join the loserville's club.

K I'll be going to bkk to hunt for these die-die-must-have wedges.

Flying off to BKK this Sun w Gan, Thin and Kang. I'm SO EXCITED. Any idea how much to bring to bkk? I REALLY CAN'T FUCKIGN WAIT TO SHOP. At the same time, after I come back I'll be extremely broke. Please hire me I wanna work. BECAUSE I WANT MONEY HEHE.

Money is the problem for me now.

Mom is the problem for me now.

I'M SO NOT USED TO BEING BROKE MAN. THAT'S WHY IM MAKING A FUCKING BIG FUSS OVER IT.

Yeah.. and I want this chanel necklace quite badly :(

Oh tell me about it manz. ugh

kkz.. I CANT WAIT TO GO BKK HEHEHE. PUAHPEH THIN AND GAN WANTS TO EAT INSECTS YUCK PUI HAHAHA

Bones

Yaya, I got terminated this morning by Janet. Great. I felt so good when she terminated me but at the same time I felt so weird. Like something's missing. Gonna miss my crazy cols esp Nora's orgasm noise. Gna miss laughing w them like mad in the staffroom, miss di-siaoing customers w Jiajing, miss koping Yuxuan's milk tea w pearls, gna miss gossiping, miss Gabriel's gayness and miss saying Yanting's a god. Yanting is the nicest manager I've ever fucking met. Although I worked only 3 months but it felt like I've been working there for a very long time. Now that I'm terminated, I felt like a free bird, I don't have to think of excuses when I skip work I don't have to wake up early. BUT. I'm a penniless free bird now how great omgosh. However I know what Janet did was right. Furthermore I should be terminated long ago LOL. I hated Janet out of impulse just now cuz I'll have to compensate Wingtai either $120 or $301. Wth, and I can't work under Wingtai (Topshop, Ben sherman etc) for I think 3 months. Eww. But... to think again... Is I gehgan so I shall not blame anyone but myself.

Now I feel so fucking free. Like empty too... like... nothing ahead is waiting for me to do. What do I look forward to now? MEETING MY FRIENDS AND EXERCISE AND HOPE AWFULLY CHOCOS WILL EMPLOY ME.

Momma's rather disappointed w me ohwell, I can't undo what's done. Shall work harder in my next job.

Yeah, my obession of being skinny is overwhelming. I bet those who are following me on twitter are annoyed by my countless nonsense and rants. I'm so sorry about it. This is me. I tried to stop but I can't.

I'm gonna rant on my blog too. This is so sad. The numbers on the scale is so important to me I've no idea why. I look fat so ya, shut up. I'll work out more I'll eat less I'll drink more water.

Food so tempting what am I supposed to do. It's so difficult to lose weight. I suffered for a week last year. In a week to lost weight from 52kg to 49kg. YES JUST A WEEK. Basically I just don't eat anything and keeps spamming water and mints. I maintained that weight for a couple of months until Dec, I started to gain weight again till now. SO DEVASTATING. It was really difficult to maintain that weight. It wasn't easy at all. I had to restrict myself from eating and that's so sad. I'm trying to do the same this year, but two weeks so I can lose 6kilos.

I want pretty collarbones, I want small thighs, I want sharp face, I want flat tummy.

Do this to my mouth so I can't eat.

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Animal cruelty. DON'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND WHY SOME HUMANS HAVE TO BE SO CRUEL. Yes, we humans feed on sheeps, chickens, pigs. But when you kill them, MAKE IT FUCKING QUICK. Don't make those animals suffer in pain. Like, sliting their throat alive and let the blood flow?  Or what? Pulling their intestines out ALIVE? EATING THEIR MEAT ALIVE? WTF.

On the other hand, I feel so guilty for eating meat. This is so cruel. Slaughtering those animals is just like slaughtering your... whoever. Because they are animals, you can't feel their pain. It's just like watching gore movies like torturing humans. This is what certain humans are doing to animals.





Why not kill those animal before you skin them? Why skin them alive? It's so fucking painful. Like someone pulling your skin outta you ALIVE. WTF :( Ya, esp those tiong koks. Always so cruel always abuse animals. Wtf.

Temptations

Can't deny the fact that my face is GETTING ROUNDER AND ROUNDER AHHH I WANNA COMMIT SUICIDE.

Friday went amk to ball w many many many many people. Fun but I had muscleache the very next day BOOHOO. I skipped work for two days I felt extremely guilty. I skipped not because I wanna go out it's because I wanna sleep gosh why am I always giving in to my tiredness. (T_T) I'm gonna work for the whole of next week before I go bkk. I can always sleep on the plane.

Riot is still going on in Thailand. I'm so friggin' sad because we might not be able to shop sighsigh... Hi thais.... stop your riot... peace please :( Please settle it by Sunday... please :(

I seriously love and appreciate how others put in effort to make things better (L)

Idk if you know I'm referring to you. But, thanks, really.. for the effort :)

Went dating w Lynette at FLB 5, Agatha came to join us :)

Flea was awesomeeee cuz I bought lotsa stuffs there and FLB owner talked to meeee~ hehehe okay la not talk to me(I'm just trying to make myself happy hehe), she only told me cream tags are $24 and green tags are $16 HAHAHA OMG FLB STUFFS AND SUCH PRICE HOW CAN I NOT BUY.

Had LJS for dinner and headed to Pasir Ris to meet Gan to celebrate FangRu's 21st at BBQ pit :)

"HELLO HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

HELLO THANK YOU! "

OMG HAHAA INSIDE JOKE.

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After the BBQ, they cabbed over to my house and slacked. Chit chat, ghost stories and then 313 for breakfast :)

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THIS IS SO SAD I'M RUNNING OUTTA CLOTHES TO WEAR :(

Seriously hate how I look now. I gained so much weight sigh sigh. Totally can feel myself expanding horizontally. Gonna challenge myself this coming week. I hope I can win the challenge within myself.

Need to save money need to lose weight.... SO MUCH THINGS TO BUY!!!!

And I've decided to dye my hair urm... black before school starts... OR REDDISH BROWN?! AHAHAHHA WTFUX.

Hidden message

Things can change. Just keep waiting. Keep the faith.

So much to say yet I can't say it.

I don't deny the fact that I'm fucking jealous of anorexic girls.

K I'm feeling rather emotional now. This sudden overwhelming sadness rushing through me. Like why the hell I can't be skinny. Ugh. I feel even more jealous of girls who are so skinny when they were once so fat. I speak my mind I don't fucking care what you think.

Okay now I feel really excited for school hehe anybody wants to be my friend first? Gosh I really dk anyone from Bishan. The ones I know are graduating in April! :(

Tomorrow and Friday are my off days yay!!!! Working is extremely fun when there are no customers. Sometimes I really wonder why the fuck customers like to scold us over trival stuffs. We worked like a dog for them we smile to them even when it's not our fault, we smile and apologise to them even when they scold us and sometimes not our fault. We fold the clothes they messed up, even those "mountains". We smile to them and be at their service even when we're like pissed off by those "mountains" they created. We keep the shop floor clean, we wake up early in the morning to replenish stocks for customers, everything we do are for customers but they don't appreciate it and still treat us like dogs when we're already working like dogs. I really appreciate customers' smiles when we greet them. Like at least they make the effort to smile back unlike some fuckers jitao bo hiu us. nabei. LOL OK. THANK GOD I'VE MY COLS TO RANT TO ABOUT ALL THOSE UNREASONABLE CUSTOMERS.

Double yayness I'm meeting Xinqi tomorrow at my place for a catch up session :) So many peepo to catch up w:) Will be hitting town to meet my dearest tekkos and my dearest turnoff gan. Gan's gna cut her da lang hair away tomorrow hope her hair will look good after cutting. I wanna go get more undies from cotton on body hehe the undies they sell are so nice ^^ But I doubt I've the time zzz

FRIDAY GONNA HAVE EXERCISE SESSION W TEKKOS AND CO YAY YAY YAY I'M EXCITED I'LL GET TO EAT KERRIE'S CHEESECAKE TOO MUAHAHAHAH OKAY IT'S 2:17AM NOW I GOTTA TURN IN SOON BUT I'M CURRENTLY FEELING HUNGRY OH DEAR...

Just because you don't see it doesn't mean it isn't there

(delete delete backspace backspace)

CUZ I THINK IT'S NOT SAFE HAHA

Okay, blog is not a safe place to pen my thoughts. Guess inside me is still the safest place. Sometimes it's not really that unhealthy to bottle things up. I'm so sorry I'm not easy to handle I've fucked up attitude. If the person really loves you, sees what a mess you can be & how hard you are to handle, but, still wants & needs you in their life. And if I ever float away, I don't expect you to chase after me because no one does. No one ever does. I'm just used to it.

Raise your glass if you're wrong in all the right ways

How can I not love this picture it's so pretty :D

(k sidetrack)

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HAPPY BELATED VALENTINE'S DAY PEOPLE! (L)

My valentine's day was well spent together w Tekkos and co :)

Shall elaborate it when I get the pictures from bimbo oh. HAHAHA

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I've work later at six boring *yawns* i mean since when work isn't boring?

EVERYTHING IS BORING EXCEPT MEETING MY FRIENDS AND PLAYING HAHAHA

I've been saying I wanna quit for the third month already... But I still haven't. Perhaps it's because of the people there and the pay there (hehe)

My school's starting on 11th April I feel so nervous now.... Need to dye my hair black or dark brown or reddish black before school starts cuz I don't wanna have "You're an ahlian" first impression. I'm really scared of the minahs there okay. New environment... gosh so scary yet I want to make new friends so much. At the same time I'm excited for school to start! HEHE MEET NEW PEOPLE NEW BAG NEW I YHOPE EVERYTHING WILL BE NEW.

Oh ya... THIS SAT 19FEB FLB FLEA!!! AHHHHHH OMG I WANNA GO I WANNA GO WHO WNA GO W ME PRETTY PLEASE OMG OMG OMG IM LIKEA EGGCITED. SO SAD I END WORK AT 630! THE FLEA UNTIL 9PM ROAAARRR I WANNA GO!!!:(

Tekkos reunion dinner was great I luv it! We had so much fun at Thin's crib esp when we camwhore gosh it felt like last year's 14Sept spent at Thin's crib too :D The massive spam of photos and taupoks really makes me happy :)

Yeah... happy... even when I got terribly taupoked and tickled.... HAHAHA

We did the five shots again awww so cute (L)

DAPH!!!! Gosh i miss hanging out w her :( miss ya girl!

Stupid girl now I'm starting to call her banana face. So cute. HAHAHA

OR MOON? Sounds better yeah? HAHA LOVE DIE HER.

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Yay met up w Eileen Lubz for catch up session (L) It's beeen sooo fucking long since we last met and she kept telling me she miss me and kept hugging me gosh i did the same too hahaha i fucking love you! ^^

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Before Tekkos reunion dinner, gan brought me to.. (I FORGOT THE NAME OK NVM THERE'S MERLION THERE DEFINITELY NOT SENTOSA HHAHA) watch fireworks. aww ji sweetz.

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Ahhh, sweetest, love you (L)