It's 10/10/10 now.
Christina, Rihanna, Katy Perry, Lady Gaga, Britney Spears, Beyonce, Madonna.
I just love this picture, it's so pretty.
If you ask me how's life, my answer would be: Sucks.
In short, I've no life at all and things around me aren't getting any better. I'm pretty bad at controlling my emotions.It's never easy getting over that something. It hit me real hard. How could you be so oblivious? Now I've changed. Changed into someone whom I don't recognise, I don't even know myself anymore. Stopped talking that much at home and that's bad. I wna get outta this mess so desperately.
Bloody goddamnit if I've the guts I'm so certain that I'll kill myself right away. When will things ever get better? Perhaps never. Sometimes I think about the past and I fall apart inside.
What a shame. We all became such fragile broken things.
Some recent and overdue pictures below.
Met up w some of the Tekkos last night for study session. It was rather productive for me however it's still not enough. Reached home at 7am. I had chilled beancurb for breakfast. Can't accept the weight that I've put on. I can feel my tummy getting thicker as each day pass. I'm so deprived of clothes, sleep and meet ups w my friends.
Last week, my classmates and I were having our dinner at the canteen then Vice principal (Tan chin huat) came over to sit w us. He started talking to me and caught me for my ear sticks and necklace.
Here comes the epic thing.
Tch: yh take off your ear sticks and necklace
Me: I dw! Huat ah! (Totally have no idea why i said that, maybe I bcuz Twitter was flooded w "Huat ah" by the jurong kias last month)
Tch: eh, don't call my name!
Everyone burst into laughter gosh that was really hiliarious. I totally had no intention of making fun of his name LOL.
Tch: Now, take off your ear sticks and necklace.
Me: I dw! you shout huat ah first then I take off!
Few days back, he came to me and said, "I'll shout Huat ah w you if you get 10points for your L1R4." This is insane, I'm not gonna get 10points neither am I gonna do well for O's. Yes, I'm counting down to my deathbed. It's barely 2 weeks away. Been studying, but it's never enough because this is last minute work. Guess what? I've not started studying for my Chemistry and this sucks. The fear of failing my O's is overwhelming. I can't do Chemistry for nuts!
Wonder if I'll talk to myself during exam, and wonder if I'll scold vulgarities when I'm doing my Math paper. Vulgarities come out from my mouth each time I do Math. Hopefully I'll not get frustrated during exams and control myself from crying. I've pimples all over my face now, this made me feel even uglier :(
It sucks to see friends around me falling out, it sucks to see friends around me falling apart. It sucks even more when there's nothing I could do to help them because I've never been good at comforting others. I've never been good in anything.
"when we love someone so much, be ready that you got to let them go, not because you don't love them anymore, but it's because you know you need to go. you need to leave. " - flebbykid @ livej.
Happy belated birthday Rachel (L) 21/09/10
We wore Pjs& caps to Mac in the middle of the night
Coincidentally, pjs were all Sesame Street, heh.
Happy belated 3rd Anni, dearest <3
This was the first time I failed baking cookies. Hoho
This picture is so nice, I swear.
Burger made by Eileen.
Ribbon made by Qianhua.
All for me :)
Sushi and spongebob by me for Qianhua and Eileen repectively :)
I'm going to bed. It's 2:20am now. Life's screwed up. I'll be back soon, I guess. I needa break, of everything. Goodnighty.
