Dear God, grant me the fucking serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the fucking wisdom to know the difference.
Sometimes I really hate myself, so much that I feel like killing myself. I'm just lack for the courage to do itl. However, I myself know I must learn to love the fool in me - the one who feels too much, talks to much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries.
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Met up with the Tekkos& Chanpuikei yesterday. It was awesome.
Bought some stuffs w Kerrie. I missed her so much! Changed my BB housing, like finally. I bought my Pink bb housing 3 months back and haven't had the chance to change it. Finally changed it and I felt accomplished. I got my Red Birks and a pair of clogs. I look ultimately tall in my clogs. I luv my birks and my clogs much :> After I got my Birks, I got so excited that I changed into my Birks hehe :)
I'm gonna wear my clogs tomorrow to my Gran's birthday celebration. Hope I won't look like an idiot or fall because I don't wear heels, clogs, wedges that often. Slacked around in Town.
I hope to meet my Jurong kias more often. I miss them, so much.
I hope to meet my Tekkos more often.
And my life's getting boring. It WILL be boring for the next 46 days.
Just 46 days more to O levels. I need to start my intensive revision. Especially Science.
Keep going, just keep going. I can't bear and afford to let my parents, my teachers and myself down.
I can't wait to do all the things I want to after O's. To br frank, I've nothing much to enjoy if I've no money. So the first thing I'm gonna do after O's is to look for a job and start working for a long time until holidays are almost over, then I'll start to do my shopping. No money, how to be happy? I mean, I'm not being money minded, I'm just shopping minded. No money how to shop!!!
And I seriously needa stop getting distracted by online shops, very tempting though. Gosh, talking about all this excites me hehe. Can't wait to get my hair dyed Ash brown again. Hope it won't turn reddish brown again like how my ash brown turned reddish brown last year haha!
K I feel like changing my housing again, cuz... it's broken!!! I broke it! Ugh :(
Feel like getting another tone of pink. I've scotch tape on my bb now :( Oh well nvm, just leave it. Ugh.
Ohoh, I had Koi today, and I trimmed my eye brows today :>
Probably uploading pictures tomorrow.
K, turning in now, toodles! (L)
